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[13 Feb 2006|10:45am] [ mood | not very positive ] [ music | carry on ] im expecting anyone will read this, i just needed to say it. things suck i just want to be back in 8th grade, or even freshmen year for that matter. im tired of having people ask me where i want to go to college and what i want to major in, because frankly i dont know! and really, i dont care.  i cant even imagine myself being old, being an adult, so how am i supposed to guess what i will want to do when i am old? my whole family expects me to do so well and go so far when i dont even expect that of myself.  i dont have the grades to get into Cal like my mother would love me to do.  i would kill to study art there, but why get my hopes up? thats another thing, my goals and dreams are unrealistic and stupid.  art, theatre? im laughing at myself by just typing it. tomorrow is valentines day... thats all i have to say about that   ( saturday was fun at least... ) 4 | speak their piece

[07 Feb 2006|06:24pm] [ music | jefferson airplane ] i love how friends dont mean shit to some people...tight tears are running ah running down your breast and your friends baby they treat you like a guest don't you want somebody to love don't you need somebody to love wouldn't you love somebody to love you better find somebody to love 1 | speak their piece

"dont act like your not impressed!!" [20 Jan 2006|12:45am] [ mood | productive ] soooo im really proud of myself... for chem we are allowed one note card(front and back) for the final check it... 7 | speak their piece

[05 Jan 2006|02:40pm] [ mood | blue ] [ music | metric ] well i guess im starting the new year on a lonely note...but thats life im sick of school two weeks until finals i want to be a senior NOW i need a job=money i want to know who the freaking cast for the drama II play is (its peter pan by the way...excited) i want to see my old parks friends i want to go to arics show (feb 22 the alley everyone should attend) ok bored peace     3 | speak their piece

[28 Dec 2005|11:17am] [ mood | blank ] [ music | of montreal ] and once again christmas has let me down...not to my surprise you can always count on the tovar family to fuck up christmas and make you want to roll up in a ball in the corner and die.   fuck christmas man...   5 | speak their piece

[22 Oct 2005|03:09pm] sooo my trip to mexico was funnn...i went to my dads high school reunion and saw a lot of my famliy (whom are crazy, but it makes me laugh). sooo here are a few pictures...(very few)   ( oooo crazy mexicans.... ) 4 | speak their piece

[12 Oct 2005|10:58pm] [ music | The Beatles ]                                                              im going to mexico on friday...                                                     and some how i always seem to get sick there                                            i must accidentally swallow some water in the shower                                  maybe when im brushing my teeth...i dont know...   but i have to miss the football game...im upset about that cuz i sure love watching our boys beat fullerton....hehehe... 7 | speak their piece

if you decide to leave, soon i will follow [11 Oct 2005|05:01pm] It was in the march of the winter I turned 17 that I bought those pills I thought I would need and I wrote a letter to my family said it's not your fault and you've been good to me just lately I've been feeling like I don't belong like the ground is not mine to walk upon and I've heard that music echo through the house where my grandmother drank by herself and I sat watching a flower as it was withering I was embarrased by it's honesty so I'd prefer to be remembered as a smiling face not this fucking wreck that's taken it's place so please forgive what I have done no you can't stay mad at the setting sun cause we all get tired I mean eventually and there's nothing left to do but sleep 3 | speak their piece

[20 Sep 2005|08:37pm] [ mood | who can say?? ] [ music | the honorary title ] Accentuated by the mobile dungeon of fluorescence As I fall out of love, this wasn't supposed to happen Not according to you Please don't allow your voice to fade Don't fall so weak to fault or blame To give yourself reason for an end speak their piece

all i want now is happiness [18 Sep 2005|01:52pm] [ mood | disappointed ] [ music | elliott smith ] so today i have my second job interview. the first was at starbucks but the weird college kids (one whom looked like daria) got the job instead. i was sad but i wasnt expecting to get the job anyway. today i have my 2nd interview with jamba juice. i hope i dont screw up. wish me luck, i guess ill need it. 3 | speak their piece

WHAAAA????? [11 Sep 2005|09:55pm] [ mood | annoyed ]                                           "get a job, but you cant work on weekdays!"   does this make sense to anyone?????                        AHHHHHHHH parents make me soo angery!!! 12 | speak their piece

Take me there to the west For I've been waiting to see you [10 Sep 2005|10:55pm] [ music | pinback ] Girl looks so sad Hair slicked back with raindrops From her walk outside It's good to be sad, sometimes No need to hide your doe eyes Light from the air Red as the rose wrapped 'Round her feet Yellow flower cup Reflects on her chin Some would pay to know why Take me there to the west For I've been waiting to see you I'd move, I'd move away... times are good, times are good...wouldnt you say? 4 | speak their piece

yeah im a loser and im gonna post my classes!! [24 Aug 2005|07:44pm] [ mood | bored...can you tell?? ]                                               period 0: drawing and painting       period 1: spanish 2                    period 2: english 3 or advanced comp and novel (not sure yet)                                 period 3: algebra 2                                                                                               period  4: chemistry              period 5: theatre 2 4 | speak their piece

[23 Aug 2005|03:54pm] [ mood | im sad summer is over... ] seattle is my city...   ( you can look if you want...oh, you know you want ) 12 | speak their piece

i bet you think this song is about you, dont you? [18 Aug 2005|02:01pm] [ mood | amazed ] [ music | bob dylan ] your so vain... 2 | speak their piece

Driving away, leaving it all behind. [10 Aug 2005|10:23pm] [ mood | indescribable! ] LETS HEAR IT FOR SEATTLE!! can i get a woop woop?? so i cant wait!! im gonna be there for 4 or 5 days...not too sure. all i know is that im going with a pretty cool kid which could make this a pretty crazy adventure. well, ill be sure to come back and talk way too much about it!! i love you all                                                                                               Oh, the summertime.                                                                                           So feel the air, feel the air,                                                                                    take the map and point to anywhere.                                                                                 I don't care. Fingers through your hair,                                                                                     the sky I've seen, blue and green.                                                                                                Oh, the summertime.                                                                                      Go on ahead and let it fade away.                                                                            No looking back you know the past will stay.                                                                               It's you and me, we could get out of here.                                                                            Jump in and go and we could drive for years.                                                                                                We could feel alive...                                       peace 1 | speak their piece

oo la la [30 Jul 2005|10:25pm] [ music | beep beep ] i love boys with lip rings. thats all i have to say. 9 | speak their piece

ive packed a change of clothes and its time to move on... [23 Jul 2005|07:03pm] [ mood | absolutely fabulous!! ] so i went to palm springs on thursday with the lovely and beautiful miss gabi! we got back today just in time for my cute little cousins 2nd birthday. its was funnnn, hot but fun. it was 120 degrees during the day, thankfully it cooled off to a mere 110 at night. the pool was 90 but compared to the air around us, it felt damn good! it was a silly night on friday. the power went out which left us with no air and nothing to do but take pictures and dance around. the pool lights were out and gabi and i are chickens so we didnt want to go swimming in the dark hahah here are a few pictures that we took cuz the others came out badly to say the least....   ( klasjflskdj LOOOK! ) 5 | speak their piece

[28 Jun 2005|07:56pm] [ mood | blank ] Did I drive you away? I know what you'll say You say, "Oh, somewhat, you know" But I promise you this I'll always look out for you That's what I'll do I say "oh" I say "oh" My heart is yours It's you that I hold on to That's what I do And I know I was wrong But I won't let you down I say "oh" I cry "oh" Yeah I saw sparks Yeah I saw sparks And I saw sparks Yeah I saw sparks Sing it out La, la, la, la, oh… La, la, la, la, oh… La, la, la, la, oh… La, la, la, la, oh…     i would put a picture on but i cant find one that suits the song. speak their piece

yeah sooooo you dont have to read this, i just needed to say it [22 Jun 2005|10:38pm] [ mood | indescribable ] i have a question... why is it that whenever i think ive got this whole happy thing down there is always something to prove me wrong? i mean its summer...school is over and i should be feeling perfect right? but then there is always that THING that makes me realize that nothing and no one is perfect... and i hate it i want to feel happy again. i want my carefree world back. like when we were all 5 years old. i want to be 5 years old again! life was so exciting then. even school was fun. i want to be able to PLAY at recess and lunch again. play like we used to, not just sit around and talk about how we dont want to go to 5th period. everything was perfect at 5, do you remember??                                i want that all back! i want THAT feeling back!   SOMEONE, tell me that you remember so that i dont feel completely crazy about this...   kenny knows what im talking about that picture makes me smile 3 | speak their piece

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